I'll never need...

another pair of shoes again! This is so me, flip flops and SNOW BOOTS! I love it when I can embrace simplicity, and I love that I am not a shoe girl.

I got my first pair of adult snow boots, and although they are not the most stylish boots, I LOVE THEM!!!! The most stylish pair (at Target) were 15 bucks more and after a recent "discussion" Ryan gave me about spending I thought I'd make him proud and go for the "less expensive" pair. So look at the cute marks they make in the snow!!! Happy Day! Little snowflakes!

It is POURING snow right now, its insane!

Julia is at her "boyfriend's" house right now so I better go get her before she's stuck there for days. Real quick on the subject, this boy's name is RYAN- ironic?? So it started out with simple admiring his humor (sound familiar) and has turned into a full blown crush! She wanted me to be Ryan all day yesterday and she was a Princess and they kept going to the temple to get married. I'm in for a LONG adolescences with her!! :) Its cute though right now!

And To All A Good Night!

Christmas is over- woohoo! Don't get me wrong I loved every second of it, but getting my house back from the decorations is soooooooo wonderful to me! A brief recap..

Saturday we went sledding all together! SOOOOO FUN! I highly recommend it!!! Julia is a daredevil, not scared one bit! Loved going by herself and usually insisted on it. Lauren went a couple times with mom and was humbly amused. Ryan was a riot as those that know him can imagine.

Sunday Grandma left and we had a quiet Christmas Eve. Frosted some cookies for Santa and put them on the plate the girls made last year (well Julia painted it while newborn Lauren laid on my chest, ah the memories). We watched some Christmas movies and put the girls to bed. The one night every child can't sleep, mine did uncommonly well. Not until after 7am did we wake to see what Santa had brought. Julia was amazed Santa ate her cookies and gave his reindeer the carrots. She wasn't too happy he left a bit behind, but I told her after eating Avry's cookies, and Anna's cookies, and a few other friends he was getting too full, she was appeased. Present opening was fun, we couldn't keep up with Julia. She got to open most of Lauren's presents too because Lulu was not interested in unwrapping at all, just playing with everything once she saw what it was. Even clothes were fun to put on her head, silly babe!

Julia's favorite thing was her My Little Pony Castle. I haven't ever seen her play with something like she plays with this, its sooo girly and cute, brought back childhood memories, LOVE IT!

We went to see Charlotte's Web. That was really good, Ryan walked Lauren around the whole time. I guess it was Christmas wishful thinking she would make it through a movie.

Our good friends the Johnsons came over for dinner and game playing. It was fun, they make us laugh sooo hard, we love 'em!

So let the New Year begin! Thinking of a resolution I think I might actually keep. Life's little joke- my working out plan, yeah the kidney stone ruined my schedule and I haven't been since, so lets pick something I can do even with life's curves, pardon the pun. I think being more environmentally aware, that's my start, perhaps I can elaborate and specify later. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Diggin It

That's what we're doing!

YAY!! We got our car out of the middle of the street, I will be taking my kidney stone pain killers now for my BACK! Holy Cow Snow Is Heavy!!

I don't know how sincere this can come across on a blog, but we can't believe how much we love this! My mom thinks we've lost our minds. I think it was the decades of desert winters that make this so amazing!

The sun popped out as if a sign from the heavens celebrating Ryan's shoveling outfit.

BLIZZARD!!!!!

This is totally the coolest!!! We are SNOWED IN! Seriously, we got over 3 feet of snow, it started snowing yesterday at 4am and HASN'T STOPPED!

At about 10am yesterday I thought I would run to the store and get some things I thought we might need, yeah I barely got to the store (Scariest ride of my life) but once there I saw cars spinning their wheels in their parking spots and I didn't want to get stuck so I just went back home, only to not be able to get back up my driveway!!!

Ryan's work let him go home early and on the way his windshield wipers froze and he had to stick his head out the window to see where he was going! ITS NUTS! So the bad thing about all this is my mom has been here and she was supposed to go home Wed night, yeah she has a flight leaving SUNDAY! She is freaking out, missing so much work, I feel really really bad for her, but we can't even get out of our house, down our street, let alone to the freeways. The airport is closed until tomorrow anyway.
This is Ryan right now, TRYING to dig out our driveway so he can get his car in (see it buried out there?). His car is in the middle of the street because he couldn't get it any closer yesterday with the snow and wind.

Look how high the snow is!! Last night we both went out back to dig our heater vents out, you know so we don't all die of carbon monoxide! I would take steps and the snow would go up to my waist! It was HILARIOUS!

We're definitely going to have a white winter! :) We're going sledding as soon as we can get down our street to the park- I can't wait! We made cookies and hot chocolate, it's just the ideal winter storm, WE LOVE IT! I've been working on Lauren's quilt, it's sooo cute! Julia and Grandma made a Ginger bread house. There are so many fun things about a snowy Colorado Christmas. The BEST is RYAN is HOME from work- YAHOO!!!! Better go help him shovel- or just push him over in a snow bank, we'll see what happens! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Now that's ONE way to wean...

Get a Kidney Stone!

Oh my goodness, have you heard they hurt like having a baby, well it's the TRUTH! Last night I was in the ER with my very own precious little kidney stone, I seriously thought I might die. I was immediately given an IV and some lovely narcotics, which hello, I can't nurse now, at least for 24 hours after taking my drugs, which I am still taking at home. Ryan has been DYNAMITE taking care of Lauren. I couldn't get out of bed last night if I wanted to. She is really taking to milk and getting the clue that mom isn't going to be picking her up in the middle of the night.

Indulge me for a second as I look into this too much for just a moment- My happy spin on all this- COULD it be a blessing in disguise??? I think so! Perhaps this is the path the Lord is giving so that I can start the estrogen??? Why go back to nursing after all this pain and suffering just to have to go through it again? I'm thinking this is kind of cool.

Here is the little Christmas Elf this morning, what a joy she is!

Fight Against Osteoperosis

I worked out last night and man does it feel good! Why do I always stop? It feels so great! I think that having a purpose OTHER than loosing weight it very releasing. I did 30min cardio and then did circuit training. I am supposed to do "weight bearing exercises" so doing the whole circuit for the first time was fun. I am major wimpy! I kept following this guy and would change the weights by like 200 pounds every time! WHATEVER! I'll be buff someday, even if it only shows in my bones, that's what counts! I have a new plan too so hopefully I won't give up again. We're going to do our FHE on Sunday nights and then I can work out Mon and Fri nights at the gym and make Wed. my workout at home day- what that exactly consists of I haven't figured out yet. I have one 5pound weight, maybe I'll lift that a couple hundred times. :)
I'm making Lauren a quilt now, oh momma do I love the material. I went a little buck wild the day after Thanksgiving at Joanne's. Flannel was 99 a yard! SO I got some cute combos! Woo-hoo, better go get a cuttin!

We must go to Bethlehem to See the Baby Jesus

That is the song my little Sheppard has been singing all week in preparation for her play today. She was soooooooo cute! It was really fun to be another camcorder holding mom today. She sang that song as they walked into the sanctuary, then she just stood there for the rest of the play, not too exciting, but still just melts your heart. I made her Sheppard costume last night. Had to figure out how you put sleeves on but once I did it was a snap. I love being a mom that can whip up a little costume, that's the height of cool to me.

Jules made this baby Jesus ornament at her party, the face she drew CRACKS me up! That's the saddest baby Jesus I ever saw!

Lauren enjoyed the festivities as well....i.e. CAKE at the big kids' table! Yeah it was a "Happy Birthday Jesus" cake. That is so funny to me, not something you hear is the LDS circle, but I like it.

I love Christmas!

Santa Doesn't Come

To Messy Houses!

Yeah, you didn't know that? Well not even Julia is buying that threat. So Santa will most likely come to a messy Adams' household. Here's a picture to prove it- our basement...does it even look like these children NEED any more toys????

So yes, the sun has come up on a new day and I am doing much better. I think I needed at least 12 hours to pity myself, then all my blessings hit me in the head and I realize what a sap I was being. Perhaps nursing Lauren last night helped clear my mind too. My philosophy this morning, is take care of the babes I do have and let the Lord send another IF HE WILLS. Hopefully by January Lauren will be completely weaned and then I can try the estrogen, but I can't make this traumatic for either of us, just not my style.

So thanks for putting up with yet another "whaaa whaaa" blog.

Now back to Christmas....

Life is HARD (slightly explicit)

So went to a new reproductive endocrinologist today...yeah I still have POF. I think in my heart of hearts I cannot accept that. It is just so unfair, but anyway. The doc was way way way cool, the first thing he said to me was,"so you have a miracle baby?" He had my heart from there. He wants me to take the high doses of estrogen again and see what happens. Ryan's at Home Depot right now buying supplies to repair the house for the inevitable damage my hormones will cause. Lauren is at the brunt of this decision...breastfeeding must come to an end. She is crying so hard in her crib tight now, poor thing, she NEVER goes to bed with out being "topped off". I am major sad for her, it breaks my heart. I want her to have middle child syndrome though, so I guess it begins with cold turkeying the boob juice. (In the midst of my tears that sentence really made me laugh.) Life is hard, I want babies and I don't want to be nuts over each one before they even exists, I don't want to feel like a sick person even though my body is all jacked, I want to be grateful for what I have and that be enough, I want to go hold Lauren and whip my boob out and make everything ok. Life is hard.

A little somethin somethin

Ok so I like our tree now. We decorated it last night while Lauren was sleeping, which at first felt wrong, but I didn't want her to get the idea that she can play with it anymore than will already come naturally. Julia is so cute, she oohed and awwed at every ornament. I love how much a tree makes it feel like Christmas in your house. It doesn't matter how many obnoxious decorations I have (and LOVE), without a tree something is missing. The tree lights really brought back newborn Lauren feelings too- how special!

This morning Ryan has taken the girls to get me a Christmas present. I LOVE and think it is so awesome that he WANTS to go with the girls, he's the raddest dad. He is all about his girls, but I think sometimes it might be hard being the only guy... this morning when we all came down stairs for breakfast I said good morning to the tree and Julia copied me, Ryan replied as the tree, "Good mornig" in a real gruff voice. He asked if the tree could be a boy since everyone else in the house is a girl, I told him no way. The toilets and garbage cans are boys, geez what else does he want?

Check out this Christmas Elf! Loves those teefies and that great big cheesey smile! Her shoes are the best too! She is lovin this new slide of hers, a bit more adventurous than I was prepared for!

Yesterday I babysat and decided since it was soooo nice out we'd go to the zoo. It was fun, but a word to the wise- FEED children BEFORE you go to the zoo. I heard "I'm hungry" in three different languages (1yr old: cry, 2 yr old: gibberish, 3yr old: whine) for two hours! We had a nutrious McDonalds lunch afterwards, such great forthought on my part.

Real Tree...

Yeah, so in the spirit of Colorado Christmas we thought we'd get a real tree.. let me just fill you in on what that means- REAL BUGS, REAL MESSES, REAL MOM GOING CRAZY! It smells nice and looks pretty, but the needles all over my carpet that blend in so you can't see them until you step on them and poke your foot, are making me nuts!!!! And nice that my lame vaccuum cleaner can't suck them up without getting clogged every 2 seconds! The bugs are the worst! A freakin wasp, some huge thing I have never seen before and a spider!!!! Minor freak out, thanks for endulging.

LAUREN GRACE

It really happened, my baby turned one. I did sooo good all day; was happy and busy cleaning for her party, making her cake, playing with new gifts. I kept saying to myself, "this is it. You're living this day, this moment." Around 6pm though I fell apart, at Red Robin no less. The tears started and haven't stopped. Nursing her to sleep was especially hard. I don't even really know why I am crying- I just feel like doing it. I LOVE HER SOOOO MUCH!!! I am sooooooo thankful for her. That she is real and here and has been for a year is just incredible. I feel like I am dreaming it sometimes, like now. How can I honestly be this blessed???

She is truly a miracle. We watched her birth video last night (THANK YOU HOLLY!!!), that was so surreal! I was watching it, and have the memories, but it still didn't seem like that was me. But when I saw me hold her for the first time, oh yeah, that was me. I can never put into words what this baby means to me. I keep trying to express what I am feeling and all that comes to my mind is I LOVE HER, I LOVE HER SO MUCH. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR HER. To have this special little bundle to love and hold and smell and rock and feed and teach, it is just my everything. Oh and to see Julia a year ago, that is adding to the tears. I was prepared to see a newborn, but Julia at two, I had NO IDEA how much she has grown and changed. Oh my goodness, the tears just pour over that too. She was and is and ALWAYS has been the best big sister. I LOVE THIS PICTURE OF HER! 12-11-05. She has not had one day of jealousy, well except today. Yeah she really couldn't handle the fact that Lauren was getting presents and all the attention. She kept saying , "What about me?" and "My birthday is in March!" Poor kid, this is her first expereince with Lauren really being the center of attention, it was shock to her little system. She is even sleeping with one of Lauren's stuffed toys she got today, Jules at least asked Lauren first, it was very sweet.

Ok so this is not the most flattering picture, but it was the one I had looked forward to since I had found out I was having another baby. I was so excited for Julia to come to the hospital and see me and meet her new baby. It was really wonderful. We were a real family of four. MAGICAL.

And this is Lauren today! Drinking a juice box and eating cheese, what more could you ask out of a birthday??? Did some one say a princess hat and cake?? YOU GOT IT... Check out that grin- mmmm CAKE!

It was a great day. I really missed celebrating with the people that would know what a special day this is, but we had friends here that really helped make the night fun. Julia did a cheer when we assured her that Lauren's birthday ended after tonight, and I slightly agree with those sentiments. Yay its over, let's move on and watch this precious babe turn into an amazing toddler, beautiful incredible little girl, and that's about all I can handle right now.

snowbabies

We got snow the other day and have been FREEZING!! But the world is so beautiful and bundling up is so fun and icicles are so cool it is worth it. It feels like we live in a snow globe. Taking Julia to school yesterday I saw how the snow sparkles like glitter in the sun and it just stole my breath and made me smile.
I have been busy busy with Christmas present making for my best friends!! YAY! Hopefully I will mail them today, I'm really happy with them, even if they do look extremely homemade- thats what they are! I am just so thankful for friends that will like them anyway and because.
I wish I could post a picture, maybe after you all get them. :)
I took a pregnancy test today- NEGATIVE! No matter how much you prep yourself it is always soooo disappointing. Ryan was pretty excited and that is all the harder to let him down too. No period this month either so I am even more disgusted, faith! Faith faith faith! Thats what I say every time I start to have those "bad thoughts".
I get a lump in my throat though thinking about Lauren, she is my constant reminder that anything is possible. Her turning one is hard. I'm trying really really hard to not over think it, but I feel like I'm going over a major hill. Crossing over a bridge of no return. No more baby things, no more tiny clothes and shoes, no more holding something that is so small and soft you never want to put her down. There is so much to look forward to and I enjoyed every second of Lauren's first year, I will not spend anytime doing anything but being sooo very thankful for my two girls.

You know you live in Denver when...

You understand the full impact of the following statement, "Jay Cutler will be replacing Jake Plummer".

You get excited that Friday will be back up to 32 degrees.

You know that Cherry Creek is not a creek.

Not only do you know what DIA and DTC are, but you can get there.

All those things struck me this morning and made me sooooo happy I live here!!!!

Check out my little girly girl- looking in the mirror. I love how her little fingers made it in the picture- gripping the counter. She also likes to put on Julia's "lipsticks" & its so cute!!!!

She blew us all away the last couple days when she started interlocking her fingers when we would say, "time to say a prayer". She's 11months old and gets ready for prayer!!!! It's little blessings like these that make you feel like you're doing something right!

In Humilty

MOM: Julia what are you going to ask Santa for when you sit on his lap?
JULIA: Everything I don't have.
Now isn't that the smartest thing you ever heard? She's so cute!!!!

We've decorated the house and it is so fun! The girls really enjoyed getting into all my tubs. We've been watching our Christmas movies and are determined to get through my favorite It's A Wonderful Life. Last year with a newborn it didn't happen. Today we watched Joy To The World, the church's DVD. I was in tears watching Mary hold her babe, how incredible that must have been, to hold HER miracle baby, to have the Savior of the world in your arms and just love him as a baby as only a mother can. Julia was completely enthralled by it. When I came down from laying Lauren down for her nap Julia was "resting" and when I asked her if she wanted a nap she explained she was Mary and she just had her baby, he was laying over there. A snowman was wrapped in a blanket as baby Jesus and all her animals were surrounding him being the people and animals that came to see Jesus. This girl is something else!

What's Been Gobbleing On...

It was a nice Thanksgiving, very very thankful Lauren is FINALLY better. Just yesterday at our THIRD trip to the doctor he said if she threw up one more time after the anti-nausea pill he gave her, we would have to go straight to the ER to get her an IV with fluids. I was soooo sad and scared. THANKFULLY the little magic pill worked and today all signs of recovery were visible. She even got messy with mashed potatoes! :) She's such a FUNNY baby! Loves making us all laugh. So taking care of a sick baby all week is pretty much what I have been doing. My aunt and uncle came from Illinois for the week. That was nice. They adore my girls. Julia and Uncle Bill made these cupcake cookie turkeys- super cute! Also super cute is her wavy hair that she got when we took her braids out- she LOVED it!!! Ryan hung the last of the lights and now we're looking forward to a 1st Birthday and Christmas! What an exciting time of year!

STAR LIGHTING

So the big Castle Rock event took place Saturday night, the rock for which this great town is named after has a big star atop it, for the past 71 years they have been lighting the star the Saturday before Thanksgiving and this year we witnessed it and reveled in it! The festivities begun in the late afternoon, you know the typical CHRISTMAS CAROLERS ON EVERY CORNER, FREE CHRISTMAS COOKIES AND HOT CHOCOLATE, A LIVE NATIVITY SCENE, HORSE DRAWN CARRIAGE RIDES! It was so fun and so amazing! Do we really live here? The street lights are all decorated with greenery and wreaths, the shops and banks, and restaurants all have decorations, lights, holly, all the seasonal decorations! I LOVE IT! Its like living on Disney's main street at Christmas time! So I'm very sorry there are no pictures, we forgot the camera- UGH!

The star was lit with a big count down and then there was a big fireworks display. Julia really liked it all, Lauren slept. We then went to Pizza Hut for dinner and Ryan proclaimed this our new tradition and made Julia promise that even when she's a teenager she'll come to the star lighting and Pizza Hut with her family.

We bought a new ornament that will represent our 1st Colorado Christmas, bought it at a cute little antique shop and now have the memory of our 1st star lighting ceremony attached to it! YAY!

Happy Feet

Took Julia to see Happy Feet last night and left the movie feeling soooo good! It has this underlying message about the over fishing that goes on in the Arctic and how the penguins' and other animals' food chains are being disrupted. When you see what is happening through the eyes of a penguin you feel infinitely powerful in making a difference. In the movie they look towards humans as being able to do something whereas the poor penguins are pretty much helpless. I usually feel like, "what can I do?", but now I have that spark I use to have when I believed I could make a difference when it comes to the environment. And may I just add, I can't stop thinking about those dang penguins!!!! I have to remind myself they weren't real, but then myself says, "But there are REAL penguins out there, somewhere." "oh yeah."

So Julia loved it but was a bit confused on the whole story line. Way way way over her head. And there was a scene with a sea lion trying to eat the penguin which totally freaked her out, I had to make her turn away and not watch, that sucked. It was seriously scary! When we left though we used our happy feet and danced to the car, that was cute! And we had to get popcorn, she would not stop talking about it! Funny kid! On the way home she said she wanted to go to Toys R Us and get a penguin costume so she could be a penguin- where does she think of these things????

Leave me where I am, I'm only...

In this house, you get sleep where, and when, you can.

It's 9:45 p.m., and Lauren just went to sleep. That means Chanel's got about 45 minutes of free time. Walking upstairs, putting Julia in her bed, and then walking to our bed is a waste of precious time, so Chanel's catching a snooze with Julia on the couch.

See you in a few minutes, sweetheart.

DELIRIUM

YES THAT IS THE STATE OF OUR HOME RIGHT NOW. The girls have "something", Julia is puking and constipated, Lauren the exact opposite- about 30 diapers a day! I laid my sweet head down at 10pm last night only to get up at 10:05, 11, 1,3 (couldn't sleep for an hour then), 5, and finally had it at 6 and got us up. So what? I have had 4 1/2 hours of choppy sleep? And Ryan is right there along side me, poor guy. This is the third night like this and its taking a toll, I promise you that. Lauren has a fever and needs to be held while she whines, even now...bye

Its Beginning To Look A Lot Like

CHRISTMAS! Well only for a few moments at a time when we check to see how much progress we've made hanging lights on our front yard tree. I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW, its not even Thanksgiving yet, I promise we're not turning the lights on yet, we just thought we better get a head start in case it snows and we can't get lights up! Gotta plan ahead here in crazy weatherville! Actually I am just soooo excited! Our neighborhood went all out for Halloween so I can only imagine what Christmas will be like. We're NOT going to be lameoids, I have always wanted to do steller lights and this is the year! I told Ryan I want Temple Square in my front yard. So he's in charge of the house b/c I'm too chicken to get up on the roof, but I was in charge of the tree because I can't completely relinquish control. Ryan thought it'd be a good pict.. I must say it does capture the moment. Amazingly enough SEVEN strands of lights barely does our tree justice! We'll have to accumulate lights through the years b/c we've spent a small fortune already this year. And I don't understand the rule you can only plug three strands together at a time? How is that suppose to work? We have all seven connected together-yikes? Plus there was a warning I have never seen before to wash your hands after stringing the lights because the wires have lead which can lead to birth defects and fertility problems- JUST what I need!

So I also brought my camera to church yesterday and thought I'd do a wee blog about church in CO. Mainly b/c of this picture-there is also a bucket of salt. Is that so cool? No, I know its not, but I love it anyway. A shovel to clear the walk at church, I just find that to be so fun! There are also coat racks along the walls. These are just things you don't see in NV chapels and I think they are the bomb! SO I then got a little carried away with picture taking at church and got this shot in Sunday school- yeah I forgot to turn the flash off and Ryan and I about died when it red-eye blinked like a million times in the middle of the lesson!!! DUH!

But here's a picture of Lauren at church- what would my blog be without a picture of at least one of my children???

Church was exceptionally great yesterday, all three hours seemed to be speaking to me- Faithfully Endure Trials. With hoping another baby could be made this month that message both calms me and makes me cringe. I know it will work out the way it is suppose to, I'm just praying to accept the Lord's time frame and will.

In the mean time- CHRISTMAS IS AROUND THE BEND! YAY! And before that is December 5! The big ONE! Woo-Hoo!!!!

1st Mommy Daughter Date

Last night Julia and I went to see DCHS production of Beauty and The Beast. She was so excited all week and especially all day. She believed it was the REAL Belle and Beast we would see. Ahhh, to be 3! I asked her earlier in the day if she thought they were on the airplane right now, (you know cause they live in Disneyland). I asked if she thought the people on the plane would be scared to have a Beast on the plane with them. She assured, "No they will not!"

We had to start our date off right with a stop at Cold Stone. Oh how I love cake batter ice cream! Julia had her first like it- chocolate ice cream with gummy bears! I suggested sprinkles, marshmallows, M&Ms. But she saw the jar of gummy bears and said, "what bout dese?", it was soo cute! So we had fun, eating ice cream and discussing what Santa might be bringing this year.

The show was fantastic!!! We have some very talented students in this town! Chaparral never came close to such an amazing production! The best part of the night was watching Julia clap after each scene. Ohhhh, melted my heart to see her clap so fervently and happily. She'd look at me with eyes filled with amazement at what she had just seen. It was priceless.

It was so great to take her to this, a very inexpensive first taste of theatre. I love the theatre. My first taste was Les Miserable in London- nice first taste huh? But I was 20 years old. I am so glad to be opening the world up to Julia at such a young age. I want her possibilities to be endless. I want her to know what theatre is and possibly want to be involved when she's older. If she has any of her dad's genes she'd be excellent! She's got a lot of drama and directing ability already naturally in her that's for sure. It was a truly enchanting night, a life long memory.

WHY....

I think I hear that 95 million times a day!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! "I don't know" doesn't cut it either. Sometimes I swear she knows she's being ridiculous and sometimes when I blow my top she is just heartbroken because she's only trying to figure out this crazy world, and who else is she suppose to ask, GEEZ CHANEL! I hate it when I have bad mom moments/days, which have been frequent since Ryan has worked 5-9 all week. Jules and I repented in our family prayer last night and promised to do better today, and it has been a much better day!
Here are some of my WHYs for the universe....
Why did gas suddenly jump 10 cents today (election day????) when we are just finally beginning to afford it again?
Why can't I ever do it all (clean, play, pray, blog, scrap, eat right, and relax) in a day?
Why don't we ever have extra money?
Why does Julia like M&M chapstick the best when it is the one that smells the worst and leaves a brown ring around her lips?
Why am I so blessed and Why do I forget my blessings so quickly?

This was started Tuesday and revamped today, hence the gas price comment. But YAY!!! Democrats are back baby! Can't wait for '08!!!!
I've been reading a lot of other blogs lately and I am so impressed with the creative women out there! At first I was bummed that I don't have that kind of creativity , but I'm all good, I'm me. I really like what I do and how I do things, even when its nothing, but talk to my friends and connect. That's my skill I think, its not something I can take a picture of and post here, but its about having that human connection and just being. Being with my family. Being with my friends. Love that. But holla to all you creative genius out there, you do inspire me!